31 October 2012

Taking Stock

Subhead: A New Direction

Subhead 2: Early Mid-Life Crisis

The past 2 years have been full of ups and downs ... and downs. I've had to get my head out of the sand and face some things I didn't want to. Think about things I've never wanted to think about. Make decisions and have conversations I'd purposely been putting off.

I've thought about life. What it means in general. What it means to me. Where I want to be in 5, 10, 50 years. How quickly those 5, 10, 50 years are going to go. What I want to be known and remembered for. How depressing all this is.

Throughout this process, which has been hard - really, really, hard - I've realized some things. I've taken stock. I have a better idea about who I am and what I stand for. I finally understand that it doesn't matter what other people think about me. I understand the importance of taking time for myself. I am, for the first time in a long time, comfortable with who I am. Quirky. Silly. Chubby. Honest. Opinionated. Talented. Strong.

I'm ready to start focusing on what really matters: my family. My friends. Myself. Out with the old and in with the new, as they say.

Good riddance to bad rubbish.

(This Amber? She evidently likes silly phrases and cliches. But will never, ever talk about herself in 3rd person again. Ever.)

What does all this mean? I'm changing my blog title.

Hee hee.

You all know I love to write and craft. So I'm going to do that more. AND I'm going to write about crafting. Watch out!

I'm going to stop saying I don't have time to write or to craft and I'm just going to do it (I now owe Nike 50 cents). I'm going to rearrange my priorities. I'm going to make more of an effort to do the things I enjoy. I'm going to say no when someone asks me to do something I don't want to do or just can't fit in.

Sure I'm going to have my busy days (school starts Monday, ug) - and my lazy days. But I'm going to find, nay, make quality time for myself. So, with that, I'd like to introduce ... (drum roll, please) ... my new blog title (with more of a focus on crafting) ... Lazy Crafternoon*!

If you like crafts - or me - keep reading. And tell your friends**. In reality, things probably won't change much, but for the first time in a long time, I feel inspired to blog again. And that's something to celebrate!

* Thank you,
Wendy, for bringing this word into my life!

** Direct URL:

*** Just realized this is my 1,400th blog post! Wow!


Wendy said...

Yay! Can't wait to see the projects! I'm happiest when I'm making something. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in making stuff that I stress myself out, but, if I'm not doing anything at all then I get into a rut and I'm not happy. Do what you love! Make! Create! YAAAAY!

Gerry said...

OK! Trying this again. Tried to post from work and couldn't. Crafting and reading are great de-stressers and we all need that. Wendy I love crafternoon but I had a craftereve or is that a crafterning tonight. Actually every Wed night with my stitching buddies. Tomorrow is a beading class. I do want to see lots of crafts. I saw a shirt that said "Eat,Sleep, Stitch" We could have one made for you and Wendy that says "Eat,Sleep,Craft"