In a lot of ways, this has been a pretty sh*tty year. Definitely one of my worst ever. I keep thinking it'll turn around and then something else happens.
My approach to this year has been to hide my head under the covers. Mature? No. Healthy? No. But it is a way to deal (at least temporarily).
I've also been taking stock a lot lately. Yes, life keeps throwing me rotten tomatoes, but I have an amazing little boy ... and a good job ... and the weather's been nice ... and school's going well ... and blah, blah, blah.
The universe is also making it very clear - in bright, flashing neon lights - that I have amazing friends. Friends who make me dinner when I don't have the time or the energy to cook. Friends who leave songs on my voicemail to cheer me up. Friends who demand that I vent to them. Friends who have literally put themselves in harm's way for me. Friends who have gone above and beyond in ways I've never imagined (you have no idea, details seriously too icky to print).
How did I get so lucky? Why do these people love and support me, flaws and all? I'm not the best friend or person. I try, but I'm definitely not perfect. I tend to start conversations with 'do you want to hear something funny' and 'do you want to hear a story'. (Awful habits. I'm working on it.) I forget birthdays more than I used to. And I barely have enough time lately to breathe much send a thank you note. I drink too much pop. I watch too much reality TV. I can be kinda catty when I'm mad and judgey when I'm irritated. I also cuss. A lot. But mostly only when I'm ticked. Which is also when I talk really, really fast.
I'm beyond grateful that I have friends who see past all that and are there for me, even when I tell them to go away. Or that I'm fine. (Hint, if I say I'm fine, I'm probably not.)
You know who you are. There's a special reward waiting for you at the end of the tunnel. It'll probably be a parade. With country music (for my Raspberry Blueberry Friend). And Dr Pepper. And balloons. And puppies. Because I love puppies. It's gonna be a good day!